Emotions give a chance to experience the main reason why i dislike saying "good-bye" I feel it is so cliché. Going overseas and having an unplanned date back is the most exciting thing i have done EVER! excitement takes over but a calmness also subsides within me. All throughout the day i was thinking to myself all i wanted to do was just vanish without saying good-bye, telling myself it would be easier for me. now obviously i know taking a look at it from an outsider, i might come off as rude and selfish. I found myself having guilt today, guilt for just wanting to leave and not say any official good-byes to anyone, it sounds too "the end" for me. I feel like a hallowed vessel, no emotional connection or reaction to anything. Trying to process my feelings is hard, when i can't even put my emotions into words. I feel like i have been staring at a wall, i am blank within my mind. This blankness of emotions and the blankness of emotional connections fills me with frustration